My life is fuked up.

Girl problems

College problems

Work problems

MIND PROBLEMS

I hate everyone, i don't know why but i do. If someone says something nice to me like 'Hey jamal' in my head im thinking 'Fuk you' but ill say hi back.

I get stressed over nothing, 10 mins ago i got out of the bath and punched my bedroom door. Why?

I got kicked out of one of my lessons in college yesterday because i was depressed and i sat at the back of the room on my own, when she asked me to move closed to the front i said 'go fuk yourself' and she told me to go home.

I broke up with my girlfriend for no reason. now she has a new boyfriend already after she cried to me saying 'Ill never be with anyone else until you come back to me *whine whine whine*' Wh0re

At work i have to compete with some little turkish boy, he sucks at his job. We started working on the same day, so if he does something wrong we both get the blame. HE DOES EVERYTHING WRONG and my boss said 'I might fire you both' -_- only the other workers realise whats going on.

My attendance in college is dropping because i wake up and think 'Fuk life' then go back to sleep. I dont really care but my teachers are acting like councellers and pissing me off.

My friends also piss me off, why? I dont know. This girl at college always comes and hugs me in the morning when i come in, on monday she just said 'hi' so i havent spoken to her all week.

Im paranoid over EVERYTHING. So i dont answer the phone, and i get angry when people ask me questions.

Yesterday i held a steak knife to myself when nowone was in the house, but i just put it back away. I have no idea why but i think im going mental.

When i woke up this morning i was thinking of how many paracetemol pills it takes to kill yourself. Some boy tried that in my old school and accidently survived, he had to miss a whole year of school and get operations on his head and stuff.

So what is going on with me!? I was fine a few months ago as most of you know... am i going insane? I feel like punching my pc monitor right now but i know il regret it so il try not to.

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