So like...I freaked out last night. I was having serious anxiety when I thought about not going home until Sunday
I read over my last blog and I could see it starting in my last paragraph, which I think is what made me think of not going home
I just started panicking. I was having trouble breathing and my head started to hurt. I don't know, it was weird
I started txting Pete about it and then I just wound up calling him because well I didn't even want to think of trying to sleep. Sleeping alone, not next to Pete. Upset with no Pete to hold me and make it all better instantly. Not feeling safe just knowing he's laying next to me
We talked and I felt a little better and finally got to sleep around 3. But I woke up around 7, confused to what bed I was in, then had trouble sleeping again when I realized there was no Pete for about 84 miles
I don't know if I'll get like this when I move back to campus. I want to say I won't because at least I can drive like 20 minutes and be able to see him, but at the same time I just don't know
~*Jess*~
