12/19/2006 17:30:57

honestly i belive in lifes ups and downs as well, but one thing i have noticed is that nomatter what, everythign is usually go throughable, its just up to the person on how they want to go through it.

I respect you because most people with a illness would be running up the walls hating life and wondering what they did wrong, instead you inbrace life, and want more of it.

Sadly my life isnt bad, but for some reason i only think of the neagative, because there is so much that i want, and i may not get (like a girlfreind for instance XD)

Im not sure where it spawned from, but i just think about things negative that way, but i always belive that everyone else will be ok.

its cool to let stuff off your chest man, check out my blogs from back in the day, all i did/do was whine about girls who acted like they cared about me just to crush my heart, so i konw about lettin stuff go.

thaks for shareing bro, give me a shout if you wanna talk, im always open.

12/17/2006 21:11:20

i agree it does have its ups and downs and im sorry to hear that but as far as this world goes i dislike it my friend and i even talked about this and how most guys these days only care about power and getting laid and most girls want a piece of that power so you get the idea there and i was gonna go by my code of honor and kill myself at the age of 18 (currently 16) if my life didnt get any better but not along ago lets just say i ran into some one who made me wanna change my life around regardless of the current state of the world if it meant doing what i hate for this person then so be it but my point is live your life the best you can even in the after life your friends will be your friends no matter what

12/17/2006 20:47:19

Wow I'm sorry to hear that

I didn't have anything as serious as what you have, but certain circumstances led me to lead an uneventful life I was miserable having. I used to try killing myself, thinking life just wasn't worth living. It wasn't until a few months ago that I realized all the things I had missed out on. It kinda makes me mad that I lost so much time not living life to the fullest, but I'm making up for lost time now

So like Franza said...go do as many crazy things as you can

BTW...I think it's really awesome that you're strong about this. I know someone in a similar situation, but they're a complete mess about it

12/17/2006 19:31:35

Go do as many crazy things as you can.. visit as many places.. experience the world. An old clanmate of mine died from a terminal disease at 31 and when I visited him in the hospital a week before he died we talked about all the fun we had togheter, soccer team everything we cried like little faggets, and anyways he was sad because he didnt take advantage of exploring in his final years... and he told me to live out his dreams and visit all these places and gave me the list and for him I'm going to do them no matter what.