I'm lazy too. Tbh I've felt the same way for years. I haven't felt like a part of a real youth group since my second youth pastor left. I haven't felt close to God in years, but I haven't given up and I know He hasn't given up on me.
One of the Jesus Freaks books I have has a chapter in it with a description of the same kind of situation. It says to tell God that you no longer feel closer to Him, pray what you're feeling. He already knows. But when you admit it to yourself and Him he'll be able to help you. That's part of what faith is all about.
new xbox experience thats what they call the new update for the 360 if you havent downloaded it and checked it out yet uhh id suggest checking it out either on the site or gettin the update cause its a bit confusing to explain but besides the dashboard changes they have avatars much like the miis except different uuhhh yeah its hard to explain lol
I understand that you just have to believe that god exists. But even if there is all these other gods from various different religions (Don't get me started with Pagen's having alot for different things), I am unsure if all of them exist, much less some of them in the first place. My only reason is because how can we be sure that when we die, we either have rebirth into a new life or passing into a better place and not just our eyes close and its just blackness?
Thank you for your thoughts, prayers, and concerns
I really appreciate it =]
Things are ok and I feel a bit bad at my rash decision to "exile" god out of my life again, especially considering when I said it, Pete sent me a txt messaging saying he loves me and we'll work things out
It's a bit of a rough transition. I'm a born and raised Catholic turned atheist, turned agnostic/almost turned atheist again
lol
I think I'm doing better bringing him back into my life, though I'm not exactly sure where I stand in terms of religion. I'll probably stay without one because I don't seem to agree with a lot of their teachings, and some times I don't feel like my god would either
But I think it gives me a sense of security believing in him again, and I think I kind of need it. Instead of talking to myself, it's nice thinking someone is listening to these thoughts and they're not falling upon deaf ears
Sorry for the rambling =^^()= But thank you again, you're super sweet and Amelia is lucky to have you in her life
In refrence to what you said, belive it or not 50 gigs isnt alot at all for most men rofl.
Now mind you it had been quite some time since i watch it, however that was 50 gigs gotten over teh course of a few years, so in that aspect 50 gigs is chump change
Lol, okay. I still think 50GB is a lot. Then again, I don't normally save my porn anyway. I have some images, and images aren't that big of files.
yee...i did try to talk to my parents, but they push me away. They don't care how i feel...my mom just wants to leave && my dad has one completely mental. he like, all depressed....just like he was back in January. It's terrible.
I know God wont stut me out, i know he's still here with me & everything. it's just hard to get back in the habbit. I try very hard to pray every night && read the bible. but that thing is thick. lolz. && i only got through the first part.
I just don't wanna live my life this way. I mean, i have been through a lot && i havepeople telling me to go see a counsoler && all. I can't though, which i s a problem, so i can only get it out on this thing. lol
okaii...umm...this crap has yet to end. it was NEVER end...&& mii parents will always be fighting. i can't do anythin'about that. && to be honest with you, this has been going on since....November of last year. && everytime i think thngs are going great, mii mom fin SOMETHING to complain about. It never ends. Everythin' is just sooo...bottled up here...that i can't take it anymore. Everythin' i have seen, everythin' i have heard...it all goes to mii head && stays there. I'm affriad of mii dad. && i shouldn't be. I'm scared to be home alone with him or just be in the same car as him. I can't really forgive him for what he did, but i'm tryin'. We don't talk. Mii mom yells at us to go spend time with daddy. so we do...his reaction to that..."is your mother okaii...where is she...is she in a bad mood". not to seem rude...but what the hell happend to his kids. I ALMOST did not come home one day. almost. i was ready to go && run in the oposite direction, but i came home either way. && this might be a shock to you...but uh...i also almost commited suicide. I wasn't thinkin'...&& just...everythin' in mii Family has literally gave me a reason to dislike them right now.
i need to leave. i need to get outta here before i do somethin' i'm gonna regret. the last time i went to church...was 2 weeks ago && before that...3 years. I'm actually thinking about this...&&...i think i lost mii place as a christian. I don't even know how to believe anymore. I just can't. I try everythin' i can, but i just...can't quite seem to grasp the concept. i'll live by ther morals & all, but that's about it. I wanna be a christian again && all, but...idk...i think i've given up...just like mii sister && brother did.
in other words, i'm sayin'...i want to run away..&& NEVER come back. that's pretty much it as for that. literally. lolz
&& sorry to hear about your poochie. sounds like abuddy for life. i sure miss mine too. =[
ahaha....nah...it's okaii. I havn't talked to anyone excpet Jonny & Brett all day. soooo...i kinda need some new people to talk with. besides, i don't mind a little bit of encouragment along the way. =]
It's not really my fault that i feel this way about my life. I honestly, right now, don't have control over it. I can't leave my house to see friends, i can' hang with friends, && i can't invite them over. Why is this you may ask? It's cause of my parents. Either they don't want us leaving and telling people what goes on in our family, or they don't want people over to see what goes on. It makes a big impact on my family & i cause, my sisters and i can't leave. The only time we do is when we have a babysitting job or running to a place with the parents. I mean, we have yet to get our summer reading books for school & have yet to do our reports. I have less than 3 weeks to get it done && i have to do 2 reports. =[ It's stressful.
My mom is usually...um...not herself && my sisters && i end up having to deal with her bickering && fighting. I haven't slept in a week cause of them. all they do is sit outside & talk. They don't even know we're in the house. the only time they come looking for us is when they want chorse done. It's pathetic. I shouldn't be home with mii dad & be affraid to do things around the house. [the clothes i wear, the things i watch, the things we disguss, && just my daily life in general]
That's why when Bounce was here, he'd be the thing/person i turned to. I'd pick him up && take him to bed with me, so that way he doesn't have to deal with the screaming from down stairs. I loved brushing Bounce, that was one thing i did durning the day. Or i would feed him, or i would pick him up && just pet him. It's just not the same without him anymore. It's too quite in the morning. I hate wakin' up && heading down stairs && finding there's no bowls for me to fill. But, i made a little section of my room for just him, so i'll always have pcitures && stuff. but yeah. that's pretty much it for now.
because it's not going so swell right now with me && for some other people. I mean, i know life is like mother nature, you jsut gotta let it take it's course && all, but somethings i wouldn't mind if they were changed && all. Examples: gas prices, animal cruelty, killings, et.c et.c I mean, i'd change all of that if i could, but...i'm just livin' life to get through it alive. I know theres a ton of opputunities out there && i'm workin' on that. i have this trip i'm plannin' after high school & everythin'...soo....i can't wait for it. =]
oohh yea resident evil certainly has its awards and respect for being one of the best survival horror series i need to get my RE0 back from my cousins ex i havent even played it the last time i actually played it it was a rainy day and lightning hit the phonebox and it kinda passed through me after that i never touched it again lol RE2 or RE3 has to be my favorite nemesis was the scariest thing i ever ran into next to those bugs in the sewer of re4 i must of died 3 times there cause i was low on health and no items had to sprint XD ooo those chainsaw guys are scary as well uugghh
lack of survival/horror/survival horror games i kneeeww there wouldnt be much cause its nintendo buut it fails me at least ive haaad a huge obsession with survival horror games ever since i played silent hill 3 i just became obsessed aaaand wasabi iisss very hot
in other words its complicated i mean the only way i get my money is by mowing the lawn, im too young to get a real job and i dont know what job i want yet
